Monday, November 15, 2010

gut feeling = negative



Maybe I’ll be surprised. It’s still early, after all. It’s just that something has felt off ever since that trigger shot, when I didn’t feel any ovulation symptoms. I’m not so sure I ovulated like the doctor said I did. And I certainly haven’t had any promising cramps, spotting, breast tenderness, or feeling of activity down there.

I’m finding myself anxious to start a new cycle. This morning after hitting snooze I was lying there and I just felt sure that I was about to get my period. I was even surprised when I wiped and didn’t see anything. I think my mind is preparing my heart to see it.

I am certain that this cycle was a bust and I am just chomping at the bit to start the next two clomid cycles, and then on to IUI if those don’t work. Dear A has agreed to have our first SA if I am indeed not pregnant. He thinks I am just being negative, and maybe I am. But I am so in tune with my body that I just feel like it would tell me if I were pregnant. It’s being conspicuously silent.

Like I said…I hope I’m wrong. We decided to wake up early and test on Friday, before I go to work. We have an appointment that afternoon with our therapist, so hopefully that’s good timing.

I’m taking myself shopping over my lunch break.

4 comments:

mare said...

Hoping you are wrong! Enjoy shopping.

Drevas said...

I hope you are wrong too! It is still pretty early so hopefully your gut feeling will change by Friday morning... :)

Still A Guest Room said...

My gut feeling has been wrong time and time again...I really hope yours is this time!

Mariah said...

I hope you're wrong too! Although, I've been pregnant twice (once a loss and now- very early in pregnancy) and both times I didn't have any sort of "gut feeling". Crossing my fingers for you!