Monday, November 15, 2010

gut feeling = negative

Maybe I’ll be surprised. It’s still early, after all. It’s just that something has felt off ever since that trigger shot, when I didn’t feel any ovulation symptoms. I’m not so sure I ovulated like the doctor said I did. And I certainly haven’t had any promising cramps, spotting, breast tenderness, or feeling of activity down there.

I’m finding myself anxious to start a new cycle. This morning after hitting snooze I was lying there and I just felt sure that I was about to get my period. I was even surprised when I wiped and didn’t see anything. I think my mind is preparing my heart to see it.

I am certain that this cycle was a bust and I am just chomping at the bit to start the next two clomid cycles, and then on to IUI if those don’t work. Dear A has agreed to have our first SA if I am indeed not pregnant. He thinks I am just being negative, and maybe I am. But I am so in tune with my body that I just feel like it would tell me if I were pregnant. It’s being conspicuously silent.

Like I said…I hope I’m wrong. We decided to wake up early and test on Friday, before I go to work. We have an appointment that afternoon with our therapist, so hopefully that’s good timing.

I’m taking myself shopping over my lunch break.


mare said...

Hoping you are wrong! Enjoy shopping.

Drevas said...

I hope you are wrong too! It is still pretty early so hopefully your gut feeling will change by Friday morning... :)

Still A Guest Room said...

My gut feeling has been wrong time and time again...I really hope yours is this time!

Mariah said...

I hope you're wrong too! Although, I've been pregnant twice (once a loss and now- very early in pregnancy) and both times I didn't have any sort of "gut feeling". Crossing my fingers for you!