Today is 11 dpo, CD 27, also known as the day I thought I would test back when this cycle started. I am not going to test today. I am going to test Friday morning, and I am 95% sure it will be negative.
But being 95% sure it’s going to be negative doesn’t mean you stop talking yourself into pregnancy symptoms. I am having some cramps – probably just my period coming, but a nagging little part in the back of my brain is hoping. This morning I downed a bunch of diet cherry 7up really fast with my pills. I felt like I was going to puke for about 30 seconds and got wildly hopeful, but then I let out a huge belch and realized it was just too much carbonation. : )
Maybe my period will come tomorrow and put me out of my 2ww misery. I would rather confirm this cycle is over that way than seeing a negative test on Friday.
I have this to say about the 2ww: the second week BLOWS. The first week, while not exactly pleasant, is kind of exciting in a perverted way. The second week is pure torture. I am obligated to tell you that I’m thankful for the 2ww because it means I ovulated, but that doesn’t mean I can’t complain about it, right?
I called Dr. Lovely’s office today, mainly just to have something to do. Have I told you how lovely they all are? The nurse called me back within 20 minutes (very prompt compared to my old OBGYN) and answered all of my questions thoroughly and patiently. I asked when I should expect my period and she said 2 weeks after the shot. I had been basing my cycle on last month’s and expecting it to last 33 days, but I guess that’s a pretty bad thing to do since that cycle was a bust and we didn’t get to TTC. If I don’t have my period by Friday, they’ll do a blood test, and Monday I could start Provera. But she doesn’t think I’ll need the Provera – most people start on their own at the end of a clomid cycle, so I hope that’s the case with me.
I also mentioned that I never had any ovulation symptoms after the shot and she said not to worry about that. She said many women don’t feel anything after the shot. Thank goodness, because I was starting to feel like a freak.
At this point it’s just more wait and see. It kind of goes hour-by-hour how okay I am with that.