Thursday, December 30, 2010

Good fertile friends

The following email I just got from a friend took my breath away. Sometimes I forget how nice fertile people can be when they try:
I am SO excited about the IUI ! As usual, I'll be sending prayers your way. And the support group sounds awesome-- there's nothing better than experiencing a situation with people who have been through all stages of the same situation. 2011 sounds like it is starting off so great and I cannot say enough how excited I am for you! 
I have to tell you this... I was swept into the idea of pregnancy by believing that I indeed was pregnant... just a bunch of random symptoms have been going on- my breasts have been ridiculously tender, I've been feeling very fatigued, random cramping, backaches, frequency in urinating (like once every hour- if not twice an hour), etc... and since I've gotten off the pill, I can't quite figure out when my period is going to be and it's been over 6 weeks since the last one. So anyway, I was pretty convinced and although we're not out right trying, I was so excited at the thought. Long story short, I just took a test and it came up negative. And I swear it did it in a very mocking sort of way--- like the quickest result probably every created (less than 2 seconds). And I sat there for way past 2 minutes staring at it wishing that it would become a cross instead. And afterwards I just felt so sad- heartbroken actually- and felt like I could barely breathe. I've just been so convinced for the past couple of weeks that it was true. I was planning out creative ways to tell our families and everything. Ugh. And I can't even imagine doing more of these and seeing the negative sign again... it was such a terrible feeling. So I've said it before but I'll say it again... you have to be one of the strongest and bravest women I've ever known. I know what I experienced today isn't even close to what you've gone through and I can't even imagine... I just really really admire you.  
So on that note, I just wanted to wish you an amazing start to 2011 and again to let you know that you'll be in my prayers. I can't wait to see what comes your way this year and I'm so thankful to be a friend of yours so I can witness it as it comes.


Amber said...

Wow! What an awesome friend! That is such a sweet, touching letter. Thanks for sharing!

Still A Guest Room said...

So thoughtful! I love it.

Alex said...

Wow - this is an amazing friend! You're so lucky to have her in your life!!!

Drevas said...

Awesome! Thank you for sharing... I agree with her... 2011 has great things in store for you! :)