I promise I'll treat my baby better than I treat my car.

Today is CD5 and I will take my first dose of 100 mg of clomid. I’m on my way to the pharmacy after work and will take it right when I pick it up, before I have dinner with friends.

Last cycle, I made a huge deal over taking my first clomid. Kind of “here we go honey, there’s no turning back.” I think I even sang a little song before I put the pill in my mouth. Then, immediately afterward, I got in the car to go pick up dinner and backed out of the garage with my rear driver’s side door open.

I caused $2500 worth of damage, which I didn’t know at the time, but I knew it was bad. I had a huge conniption fit about how it was a sign that I was too irresponsible to be a mother and I don’t deserve a baby because I can’t even handle a husband, a house, two dogs and a car without effing it up. And I didn’t even manage to go get dinner before it all happened.

Thankfully, our insurance covered it and we only had to pay the $250 deductible. But still, $250 is a LOT OF MONEY to pay for a stupid, scatterbrained, completely preventable mistake.

Here’s to hoping that nothing catastrophic happens today after taking the clomid…

If I die before I get to be a mom I’m going to be seriously pissed off!