Friday, August 12, 2011

And we're off!

I had my head all wrapped around a break. I will be in California in three weeks and I thought that by taking a cycle off of synthetic hormones, maybe my hair and skin would look nice in my photos. I had convinced myself that a break was a good thing, and I was actually looking forward to it.

But when I spoke to my Dr. for our follow-up last night, it went a little like this:

Dr.: (in his best compassionate doctor voice) “So, there’s no rush, no hurry, think about what you want to do and when you’ve decided, give me a call.”
Lulu: “Oh, we want to do it again. We want to do it again right away. We assume we need to take a cycle off since it’s CD4 already.”
Dr.: “If you’re ready, I’m ready.”
Lulu: “What?”
Dr.: “Are you on birth control?”
Lulu: “No. Wait, what?”
Dr.: “I can call in BCP for you and get you a protocol tomorrow.”
Lulu: “What? [pause as she considers getting through airport security with needles and Qcaps, decides that diabetics do it every day and that she can live without close-up shots of her in San Francisco, after all that’s what photo re-touching programs are for right?] Okay, let’s do it.”

Dr. Friendly thinks he can address my shitty fertilization report by increasing my stims (2 Bravelle, 3 Menopur the whole time) and ICSI-ing all of my eggs. I asked him if he was concerned about my egg quality and he said absolutely not. About two minutes later I asked again “So you don’t want to do any further bloodwork? You think my eggs are fine?” He said he’s not concerned about my eggs at all.

I heard him say that twice, ladies and gentlemen (listen to me, like there’s a single gentleman out there reading this blog). There was no discussion of Premature Ovarian Failure, an egg donor, an AMH test like I had geared myself up for. Just poor stim timing, which is correctable.

I feel like IVF#1 was child’s play compared to this upcoming cycle. I didn’t gain a single pound (!) and had very minimal bloating and pain. I know with this more aggressive protocol I won’t be so lucky this time, and I told him that.

Lulu: “Pump me up, I don’t care how uncomfortable I am, I want something to freeze this time.”
Dr.: [chuckling, probably asking himself how he deals with these hormonal women every day of his life] “Well, I will hold you to that.”

Fasten your seatbelts, here we go!


Drevas said...

Yay for IVF#2! Your doctor sounds amazing and it sounds like you guys are going to get a VERY different outcome this time! I'm very excited for you! :)

PS - Enjoy CA!

Jem said...

"Not concerned about my eggs at all." is awesome news!

Here's to kick-ass IVF #2!

Stacy said...

That is exciting!

Chickenpig said...

YEAH!!!!! Here's to a great outcome from IVF#2!!!! :)

The World Needs More Nerds said...

Wonderful news! Sending lots of positive thoughts :)

thirtiesgirl said...

That's awesome news! Hoping you have a great second cycle.

Mrs. M said...

" there’s a single gentleman out there reading this blog..." I had to laugh at that one. Happy to hear that your eggs are Grade A!

TurtleMama said...

That's great Lulu! Let's get 'er done!

Megan said...

So glad to hear about the doc's confidence! Go go go!

Marissa said...

Go for it!!! I'm so excited and hopeful for you.

Lmac said...

Fingers crossed for you!!

mommyodyssey said...

Fantastic news! Congrats!

Ruth said...

Yay for moving forward! Good luck, I'm keeping fx that this 2nd time around does the trick for ya!!! (BTW, I'm Ruth; found your blog through CycleSista :)

Alex said...

How exciting! I'm so happy for you that you can start so quickly! Bring it on!!!

Roccie said...

I met some gal at a party this wkend who had 2 cancelled cycles (I dont know all the details) and one cycle where she retrieved one egg. Her last cycle got 8.


She said nothing about DE, course I didnt either, but it sounds like she rebounded.

You can too.

Articia said...

Thanks so much for the kind words. I know you understand right where my head is at! I am glad to hear you have a ray of light at the end of your tunnel with this next cycle.

LC said...

Yay!!! So excited that you can get started again right away. I also laughed at the part about there being a single gentleman reading this blog. I think the only gentleman that read mine is my hubby and my dad. HA!