Tomorrow I have lunch with my friend, J, whom I have written about before. J and I used to be BFF, but then she started TTC and everything fell apart.
I have a horrible feeling that she's going to tell me she's pregnant. This is the first time we've done anything alone in months. They've been trying since last fall. The timing is just too right.
I wish she would tell me over the phone, or in some way where I could fake it and then have some privacy to cry. If she tells me in person I won't be able to hide my resentment and heartache.
Maybe I'm making it all up in my head.