Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Tiny baby, scared mommy

  1. After reading your responses to my kick count post, I called last week to ask if I actually had to do them. Can’t I just pay attention to the baby’s movements throughout the day, and notice if he’s less active than normal? They said that was fine. I threw away the chart.
  2. The anxiety did not go away. The past few nights I have lost sleep, convinced something was wrong with the baby. I told myself I was just crazy, but this morning I finally gave in and called. The nurse said that a bad gut feeling on mom’s part was enough reason to see me.
  3. I requested a vaginal exam because I thought I was getting a yeast infection (I was correct). While she was examining me, she noticed my vaginal septum (remember the weird vagina?). She said “We’ll have to watch this during delivery – it will probably tear.” Ouch!
  4. Then she measured me and said I had grown a bit in the past week, but not as much as she would have liked. She meant to say we better go ahead and schedule an ultrasound to check the baby’s growth, but she slipped up and said “Let’s go ahead and schedule you a c-section”, and I almost pissed my pants right there. That’s a big mistake to make! ULTRASOUND, you mean, doctor!
  5. I asked what some reasons were that a baby would measure small. She basically dodged the question, saying there’s “small” and “alarmingly small” and they just need to find out which one the baby is. She also said sometimes IVF babies are just little.
  6. So, I go tomorrow at 2:15 to see just how small this little man is. I also go back on Friday for my last cervical length check and to see the doctor again (she must miss me if we go more than a few days without seeing each other).
  7. Please keep me in your thoughts. I am nervous about tomorrow.


Emskyrooney said...

Will be thinking of you and hoping baby is just "small" and not "alarmingly small." Glad they let you throw the kick-count chart out the window though!

Oh and definitely trust mother's intuition as much as you can (Without going crazy!). At 37 weeks I noticed baby wasn't moving as much as he had been- he was still moving but not like a soccer player in my womb any more. Turned out my amniotic fluid was low and they induced me early. So glad I trusted my instincts!

Chickenpig said...

"IVF babies are just small." WTH? Other than the manner in which they are conceived, IVF babies are the same as any other. My daughter weighed in at 9 lbs, and my twins were 6 lbs 9 oz, and 7 lbs 1 oz. I hope your baby is just small, although I'm beginning to wonder if they are measuring it correctly.

Try not to panic, but continue to trust your intuition. You will know if something is just "not right".

TurtleMama said...

Hope you get some good news tomorrow. That's good you are following your gut and are getting things checked out. Will be thinking of you!

Stacy said...

My doctor actually gave me an anti-anxiety medicine for panic attacks. I think IF and recurrent miscarriage have left me scarred. One day at work I spent 2 hours looking up chromosomal abnormalities on the internet and had myself convinced that our little bean had one!

Hang in there!

justagirl-Krista said...

Hope all goes well tomorrow. Good thing you listened to your body and you are getting things checked out. I have to remember that!

Still A Guest Room said...

Thinking of you today!

Still A Guest Room said...

Thinking of you today!